clear vision - clear results

Today I said mo words yet, I feel better.   Mainly I thought about women, and how stupid, mindless and superficial they are. I thought about a better place. Is there a better place I could go? I feel extremely confident that there is. Confident that I could find it, hopeful that it exists.   As far as my interactions with women go, well I could build a "deep" relationship with a woman, only to get my heart ripped out, and have my identity vanish years or even decades down the line.    Or,  I could just touch & go. Fuck them where I can, and keep rolling. Enjoy the connection with the ones I feel connected to, and keep moving. The better alternative.    I was silent because, I didn't want to talk. So sick of talking. Fucking tired of talking. It means almost nothing.   Whatever happens, who gives a fuck eh?

How can I try & at least see the Docs point on women? I feel like he hasn't been at a point where he's seen the worst of women, how downright amoral & ferocious they can be. "All women are not the same, some women". Yeah maybe, but when you've seen enough bullshit from them, even the good? No, rather nicer ones get painted in a bad light. He thinks its the mans job to provide, honestly I feel so too, to be the breadwinner, but where is the worthy woman?   I feel like he takes their side a lot. But they are not for us is what he does not understand. They are for themselves, for their children. It is reflected in all conversations I engage in with them. Solipsism...   I need a new attitude toward women to move forward, but with what I've seen and read, its so hard. Mission impossible, x10.   Then the nature example of the warbler, the bird being rejected because its plumage was not of a certain color. Is that what all this come...