clear vision - clear results

I've been pondering over some of the processes of life, of achievement. it seems to me I've been missing the 2nd step, which is thinking tactically, or "how" to achieve things. for so long I've been relying on sheer willpower, whereas I'm starting to gather that brainpower would get me a lot further. if A is willpower and C is the end-goal, then I've been drawing over B for nearly everything which plagues me. this applies to many problems I've had. I've successfully used the pondering of problems to solve my inability to fast. next up is the weight problem, and how to become a pimp as well. willpower, is just the first step, and according to Theron Dumont, an emergency use of energy. it can't be relied on in the medium or long term, as a "sustained" store of action. jumping to the end state doesn't seem to be probable for more intricate or nuanced problems. the other part of this is as Joseph Murphy says: "you are ...

while walking on my way to the Suns game today, I had roughly an hour to really think about things. recently another mentor, well I won't say mentor exactly, but an advisor to the game for me passed last month, in February. unlike supreme though, he didn't go naturally. he committed suicide, at age 37. this man was in the prime of his life, owned his own dance studio, was successful, but seemingly saw no way out. or maybe he saw nothing else left for him to achieve? I don't understand it. but then again, I sort of do. I will never commit suicide, but with supreme's passing I truly realized that death is on its way for me. and its not just for me; its for everybody, but the concept of death holds much more tangibility when it is personalized. maybe he just wanted to speed up the process. my biological father is gone...never knew him. step-father, gone in 2003. my first step-father, passed in 2008. then supreme recently... sometimes I wonder why we fight? the en...