clear vision - clear results

I dreamt of her, once more. I was driving up a one lane highway, situated above a sea of vast water, with no guardrail. I nearly spin off a few times, it's a miracle i don't land in the ocean.  It was in Alabama,  but I was aiming to get to Mississippi. I end up on an island with her, for some reason.  We meet, and there is a beautiful, tiny white child. Blonde hair,  blue eyes. I think to time our last session,  to confirm that he is mine,  but I know. i want to speak,  but what to say?  I'm sorry for being away?  Just needed time I suppose. I suppose there is still some flame in my heart, for her. Love equates to meaning. I find little here beyond accumulating money. If I still love her,  or desire her, does that mean I haven't changed as a person ?  Perhaps.  At least on that one subject, the subject of woman, I have not moved forward. I wonder what she's up to.

from Oct to Nov 15th...much of this time was spent idling, pacing and preparing for the upcoming move. the preparation made the move simple. shipping my things was easy thanks to Amtrak Express, and cost effective as well. landed my first apartment, then off I went. 4 years in New York down... coming to Charleston, was not much of a culture shock.as I grew up in Syracuse & this seems to be a more upscale, classy version of that city. similar population. the layout requires use of a ca,r, which I don't have at present. anyway, I'm glad to be out of New York. I'll be sure to visit in the summer, maybe buy a pad for that purpose. there's too much action there not to. my arrival day was interesting. the man who helped with transporting my belongings to the apartment is mixed, as I am, only his father was black with my own white. he immediately asked me if I was mixed upon meeting. guess we can sense each other on some level, but to that point I'd never had that h...