clear vision - clear results

The ride to LA began with me screaming at myself internally, the voice which gives delivers me morals to follow (superego) clashing with my real ego, with my real ego demanding the space and freedom to follow the precepts of supreme, and my superego wanting to keep up the isolation that I've been in. I can't say just who has won at this point, its an ongoing battle and only time will tell. On the bus I had an decent conversation with a cat from San Bernardino and he told me of a great free movies website, named gostream movies. After that, I arrived in LA and it was 1am so I got my hotel key and went to sleep. The station is located in the middle of Skid Row for some reason, probably cheap property costs. My hotel was in Hollywood. Woke up Sat morning and headed to the Chinese Theatre on Hollywood Blvd, where I saw the first movie in theaters in about three years-- Mission Impossible: Fallout . The action was excellent, from the motorcycle riding and driving to the fight...

I just spent about a week talking with a broad online only to ask her phone number, have her think about it and have her get cold feet. the thing upon reflection which I caught is that "the game is to be sold, not to be told". I told her I wanted to talk to her on the phone, which she started hemming and hawing over, which I then replied to as it being a way for me to screen women, which probably wasn't the greatest move. these bitches don't need to know the game techniques that I'm running. all they need to know is the feeling and the experience that I'm going to give them. its somewhat akin to deception, only more the creation of an illusory (or real?) state to put them in, almost to hypnotize them in a sense. plus, if she's not willing to give that up, a mere phone number, after a full week of conversation, she won't be willing to give up other things which will be required of her later on. indeed, I shouldn't have told her what I was d...