clear vision - clear results

I'm getting better, slowly. the work consists mainly of uncovering blocks, and changing my mental attitude, specifically when it comes to money, but also in other areas, such women, and guilt. I have definitely improved in these areas, the second chakra stuff. there's actually a financial plan in place now, which helps me greatly to manage it. I've also been palming every day for the past month, just looking to get my eyesight back, and am finally taking the physical actions toward that. the next area to examine would be my work life, get that sorted out, as well as my living arrangements as well. I gave my fifth speech at Toastmasters, that was fun. the crowd loved it. that's about it for today's installment. please come back next time, when we will (likely) have a breakthrough.

I think of my family, every once in awhile. I am currently listening to Road to Hanna, by Shadowfax. sometimes I get like this: wistful. I wonder what they are up to, how their lives are going. nostalgia. Jessica, is managing her baby, trying to build her career. she is 25 now. Sabrina has moved to Rochester, and is in a medical assistant program. I'm proud of her for getting out of that house, up there in Oswego. Donald is back in school, after being discharged from the Army, trying to build his life. I wonder when I will see them again. then I remember the tasks I must complete, the work that has to be done. improvements must be made. electronic communication (phone, email) won't cut it, only face to face. I am looking forward to the day we reunite. they are too far to whisper.

Where is the solution? As of late I have taken to reading blogs in that special interest area of the Web known as "the manosphere". I went there in search of more answers, more detailed information, as to why, or even alternate views of women and why they are the way they are. This place [ZM] is for the "how", imperative knowledge. From there, I received a lot of explication, yet no solution. I learned about the war bride concept, that men & women love differently and have different expectations for love (men love as an ideal, women love opportunistically, if one can even call that love), and that a man can never let down in his game. I knew that last fact already, from experience, but reading stories from guys out there only reiterated that reality. The past few months, I have consistently been wondering about women, pondering them, about how animal like they are, the claws beneath the velvet glove, how united they are with their instincts. I supp...