clear vision - clear results

I finally have my technique! Free at last, free at last, thank the Lord, I'm free at last. So, I put my mind over the past few days to find a technique that works for me. It hit me recently, that I waste, or use, a lot of my free time contemplating technical problems at work. But how much of my brainpower goes unused on my own personal problems! With those parameters in mind, I was sitting in the park on 96th and Madison, practicing yesterday, when it came to me.  If I: Find a way to keep my focus past 1-3 seconds Satisfy my mind's predilection for novelty. Current method is to count upwards from 1-30, with colored numbers inside of some shape, such as a hexagon, triangle or square, while attempting to read the letters or words on signs, vehicles, and buildings Keep pace with what I can already do, in terms of distance (no more than 30-40 feet) currently, extending as I go Remain still, in order that I may focus better And make a conscious effort to drop the squint while I'...

It's been actually a lot longer than that, counting all the unnecessary nonsense I went through as a kid, but that's the year when I started my self-improvement "journey". In reality, it's been a lot of dead ends, and stalled starts, but I'm finally moving ahead in a steady way. By this I mean the improving of my eyesight, and also certain other issues, that led me to spend, getting close to $100k at this point. But I don't care. I'm almost there. I figured out finally how to keep my energy high enough in order to boost the utility I gain from all of the sessions. The key, believe it or not, was Vitamin D3 . Since I've been taking that, nearly every day, from last December on, I've been making incredible progress. I spent a month and a half already in NYC doing 37 sessions, and I'll be back in 2 weeks to keep it going. I want this to be my summer, and I'll do what I have to, to get there.  In other events, I've been fasting like a m...

So, I've been back in New York for about 2 weeks now, and it's been a grind. At points, it has felt like my body was falling apart--specifically, my lower legs. I think that comes down to training issues. I'd been focusing too heavily on quads in my return to weight-lifting, neglecting the hamstrings and glutes. This past week focusing on them has lightened the load a bit, and my walking gait is nearly normal again. Just have to deal with the stiffness. The other part is therapy. Getting there has seemingly gotten tougher, that might be because of my weight though. Whatever. I still make it there. Some of the sessions though, a lot has come out. I feel like I'm making progress, though in what direction I can't be positive. My whole goal was to regain my eye-sight, but is the attainment of such continually to remain on the horizon? Hard to tell. The last part is me getting back to my roots--what got me involved in all this in the first place. Those are the books by W...

 Below I'll post the transcript of an internal conversation with myself. Asked me answers last night and they came. The key has always been within my grasp... I realize that women kind of are what they are at this point and thinking about the past. Well, thinking about my life, you know. I go back to a book by Maxwell Maltz, called Psycho-Cybernetics. And in the book, he talks about how some people would change once they had the plastic surgery and some people would not. What was the reason why the people didn't change remained the same even though they looked drastically different? And he came up with the concept of an internal image of self-image and yeah, methods or techniques somehow to change that.  All the stuff I have learned over the years from great mentors like supreme and some other folks as well confirms that, in different aspects at least. I realize that I have not really shifted my internal image much. I've shifted it a bit, but that came over time. Life inten...

I haven't covered my trip to Texas yet, but it led me to discover some things. One is I do not take constant criticism well, and it came in high doses from K. So that leads me to believe that I'm better off, not on my own, but spread out as I were before. I went to three cities for my "Texas Triangle", here's the breakdown: San Antonio: has SeaWorld, the River Walk, which is great, and the Alamo. Had a good time, but it has a sleepy sort of bedroom community vibe. Houston: very urban, very crowded. Some folks w/ great houses there in the city itself, and good local musical talent. Very much my vibe, but different than eastern cities in some sense. More...mid-western I suppose one could say. Austin: lots of fun. music every which way you go. Would come back just to hang out. Creatives definitely flock here for a reason. Went to quite a few music events--Zapp & Roger, local improvisational talent, and local groups everywhere else. This is seven days a week! I...

My big leap this summer, and this year, will be the return of my dreams, specifically, my remembrance of them. After about a week now, of remembering them upon waking, I see they are quite mundane and filled w/ worry about what could potentially go wrong in my daily life, provided I make certain mistakes. Situations like sleeping in late, or not giving certain women what they want, it's all so...quotidian. In some measure this must hold me back. Perhaps, no, it's likely that I need an imagination upgrade. Now that I have visibility into these aspects of my nightly cerebrations, I can take steps to correct them. I'm already on the way to correcting my weight issues. Just takes focus and imagination over a period of time.

What a year this was. I was going to say 'probably' the most productive of my career, but there's no 'probably' about it. This was the most productive year of my career, and maybe my life too. Since summer 2021 I had been working 2 jobs, and that job ended at the end of August. From there, I took some time to recover, about a month, actually that's not true. On the very day it was ending, a recruiter called me, for another position! I accepted since the pay was good. That started a month later, beginning of October. Since then, it's been a rollercoaster ride. I picked up another job, shortly after, at the same firm where the other job ended, but that didn't start until November. I also didn't mention the other job I do, working for another state agency, albeit part-time.  Backing up from the start of the year, at my original job, my previous manager got promoted, then I switched teams, and from there--got hired on full time. It's a state agency,...