clear vision - clear results

Phoenix! I'm here, and the momentum is mine.  there was a prime reflection sent, for my desire. This means its in the works. It's about sex really. There is a window I feel when moving to any new location to transform to a new state of consciousness. Perhaps it lasts for a month or so. I must take advantage of this... And I will

Only 700 miles to go.  I'm in Amarillo, TX at present, and was in Memphis yesterday. That's half the country in two days. I like Memphis. Anyway, I'm only 70 miles out from the place where I've desired to be,  for so long.  I'm hoping I can settle down there for awhile. During the drive, when I wasn't listening to music,  distracting myself,  I was thinking about my life.  I'm 30 now and want to get things in order. This means playing women, using them before they get a chance to use me. This means tighter family ties, if they'll have me.  This means more adventure,  making my days interesting,  finding out hidden things, and of course lots and lots of green. I can achieve all this. Focus is the key. At the end this will have been a 3000 mile journey. It'll have went from New York, to Charleston,  and now to Phoenix. Let's keep it there for awhile.

I turn 30 tomorrow, and I'm not sure how I feel about it.  Time inevitably marches on,  but ideally you want something to show for it. I suppose in looking back at my 20s, the thing I'd like most is to stop fighting myself.  I'd like that,  and great success and adventure.

onward toward Phoenix onward toward freedom. my next goal in the meantime will be spiritual.

it's over, I'm going home. there's so much to take away from the experience, let me begin to unpack. first of all I believe I need another lengthy fast like this. not only for health reasons, like weight and the gastric issues I posted about earlier, but a lot of family thoughts came up while there. a lot of life was lived by me since my last major fast (15 days in 2009). thats 7 whole years. went from Buffalo to New York, to Charleston. then all of the women and various issues with that and other life changes. it has to be dealt with. sections : 7 day fast the girl 👧... spiritual lessons nature fellow travelers 7 day fast : first thing is first, the important part of why I journeyed out in the first place. I needed to fast. my weight was skyrocketing, nervous system seemed troubled and I just couldn't get going in anything important. clarity eluded me. so I went to a place such as this:  deep in the heart of Texas. to fast. and fast I did. 7 days b...

You have to earn your health, even when its the most difficult thing in the world to do. Stay the course, past temporary but intense discomfort... This is the journey I'm on now. Day 6 of water fasting commences. The longest streak since college all those years ago, when I did 15. The 1st 3 days went easy enough. Day 4 however, drowsiness overtook me. I stayed in my room, only coming out to drink water and leak. One instance felt like passing fire. It was very likely the gastric acid being discharged, the sane that passes into my throat when I burp sometimes. Day 5 was harder. Constant mental tension, restlessness, insomnia and overall physical uneasiness. My stomach also felt like a rock had been dropped into it. Perhaps the week a few months earlier where I gorged on donuts might have something to do with that. Urine was less scalding to pass, but still hot. Good. I 'll take that as a sign of getting better. I stood on the scale just for my information, two of them. O...

thats what it takes to get ahead. this was a license plate someone had and it defined my mood perfectly--hand in glove. there have been some recent developments at work to spark my thoughts and accelerate some feelings on a few matters. the first is the pregnancy of my supervisor. this is the first time I've ever been directly supervised by a woman...and its different. to her credit she is extremely work focused and a good manager but the problem she shares is the same one shared by all women--they are women trying to compete in a man's world. since they are unable to compete directly due to some of the disadvantages that they have, namely that they get pregnant, which wastes valuable time and a few others more mental in nature, the playing field has to be tilted and those drawbacks have to be compensated for. now all of this is fine. but as a result of her pregnancy, she has transferred power over to yet another female, who isn't capable to lead. aside from this I see ...