clear vision - clear results

This is a quick accounting of my two therapy sessions. I'll post my thoughts on New York and seeing my family in a separate post. 9/3 therapy. First session since October 2018 . It was at his home office, in Scarsdale. Scarsdale is very nice, the houses are big and upscale. Given that its Westchester though,  I suppose that's to be expected. Doc seemed more comfortable than I ever remember him being in New York. The environment in the city must add to his stress. We covered my mistrust of everything,  even apparently of my family, who I hadn't seen in five years. I told of how I was holding off on seeing them into I got down in weight,  fearing a negative judgment since I've ballooned up. When this was rebutted, then the notion that they couldn't say anything since I was paying for everything entered my thoughts, to which Doc responded "Oh, so you bought them off?" with obvious skeptical mirth. Apparently the thought that their gratitude in seeing ...

This day, July the 12th, I almost lost my vision, and it was because of lack of vision that it occurred at all. Usually, part of my morning routine involves putting my contacts in, so I can see. This morning, immediately upon doing so, I was greeting with a burning pain, much like the sensation of a fire-hot blowtorch being pressed against my eye. My eye shut quickly and it was some time before I could get it open and remove the offending contact. It turns out that the solution I used, which was new, nearly cause me to lose my vision. I still went to work this day, though I left a few hours early after the pain and irritation became too much. At some points, over this day and the next, I feared I would lose my vision, particularly when my eye began to shut of its own accord, and not from drowsiness. Other than that I've had a very interesting few weeks since then. Been interviewing for a new position, at a very good firm, and we're upgrading my chosen solution at my curren...

Since the start of the year not too much has changed, just struggling to make a few needed changes in my life. There are a few successes however. First and foremost is that I am student-debt free! Finally. Feels good It was a real grind to get there. But I did it. I worked Dave Ramsey's debt-snowball strategy to a T: $36000+ paid off, in roughly 16 months (14 months in real-time since I only paid the minimum for two months I was traveling). That amounts to half my income basically every month on this bullshit. But its over now. And I truly feel sorry for those who are in debt bondage and will remain so for decades of their lives. All because they signed a document as a dumb 18 year old kid. Sad stuff. Guru of Personal Finance, Dave Ramsey. Another college-related milestone I hit: its been 10 years since I graduated college. The date was May 10th, 2019. How time flies. That was prime in the middle of the market crash, the great Recession, when t...

Personally Last year was one of the most productive in my life, if not the most. I started off working and kept working straight through. Financially it was the year of paying off debt, of which I took down around $24000 worth, mainly student loans but some on credit cards as well. I also started to take Spanish lessons, three times a week for at least nine months. I have more to do to become fluent but at least I've begun. Fluency as I understand it will require at least twice that amount of time. The biggest event of the year for me was the influx of sunshine. Seriously. On a whim or perhaps divine inspiration I decided to sit out in the sun one day for lunch and came in the next day supercharged. From there my energy picked up gradually and I was able to start a workout routine, and get back in the game. Pure Vitamin D3 is no joke. Shortly after I went to LA and just hung out on the beach. I was simply doing it for enjoyment, to hang out and enjoy the weather. At this time I ...

this morning I had a great vibe with a woman who was driving my uber. I got in and her car smelled nice, and even better she was playing fantastic music. don't encounter too many people who know of Paul Hardcastle, let alone chicks. she was black with dreds, age maybe 24-26. we connected over music and afterward I was left wishing that I had gotten her phone# or maybe invited her out to do something. music I find is turning out to be a big aspect of my interactions with women. it colors them, binds them and unites us together in ways that it'd be very difficult to do without. it can both be used to enhance the mood or detract from it. in situations like that I should've applied the New York City principle, that is, if you don't act on it immediately, you'll never see her again. just one of those things I suppose. some other news in my life, since its been awhile. I'm almost below 300 and steadily working to get there. had a brutal session today with my person...

 Orange County this past Thanksgiving I went and saw my cousin, Aquah, who I had no seen in eight years. I stayed for two days. it was a quick plane flight, about an hour roughly. prior she lived in Indio which is basically the desert, but now is in Orange County-Huntington Beach. anyway she picked me up and immediately remarked on how I had been eating good. that was pretty funny, and aptly stated. then we went back to her apartment and there I saw her two little daughters, both now eight. I remember holding them when they were infants. now they were running all over the place. I could tell it was a lot of work for her and Craig, who I met for the first time, to take care of them. to this end, they had round the clock assistance from hired hands to manage the children. the first day went well enough. we cooked: turkey, beef roast, stuffing, and all sorts of side dishes. Craig's family came over to eat, I talked college football with them and everything was fine. af...

yesterday at the gym with my trainer...I was mesmerized by the body of this one woman. she must've been Italian but she had tight spandex pants pulled up over his belly and basically a criss-crossing workout top, colored light blue. her frame was magnificent. before her I can't remember feeling such a strong desire to want to "connect" with a woman. I sat down for a bit just to take it all in, but then it was time to move on. Talking Body (KREAM Remix) a lot has occurred since the past update but of course its a woman who inspires another post. other than that brief interlude, I am now 32 years old. I spent my birthday weekend in Las Vegas and had a great time. I had heard over the years just how much fun there is to have in Vegas, and its all true. the hype is real. World Famous Las Vegas sign I went with my ladyfriend, and we saw quite a few sights. the musical water-jets, the Mob Museum, Las Vegas Downtown, the Hoover Dam (beforehand), K...