Therapy 12-18

Have to write this out now, before I forget. 

I got there and picked up from where we left off the night before. The main thrust of what he is saying is be professional, regardless of whether above or below somebody.In situations where I become unsettled, then is precisely when it is most crucial to remain professional. Phrasing of expression is key in the workplace: blunt language rarely works, but assertive language does.  

I talked about the family/work thing, which had confused me to a point. I did not know: if its all about the work, and everything comes down to the work, why do people continually try to conflate the two? is it on purpose, to get us to drop our psychic guard? I used to continually wonder this: did V really mean what he said when he said we're like family? or did D mean that, I am like a son? The conclusion I come to is NO: you can't fire a family member if they don't perform. There is no performance metric. They don't have to do anything but be themselves. Communication would not die entirely with a family like it would if it were work-wise and I moved to a different location. so, that is not this environment, or any work environment. 

This whole thing bothered the heck out of me. Now, the glamour is off of my eyes at least. 

Physically, he worked on my forehead a bit, the side of my head. My stomach heaved the old heave/ho, and I screamed a lot, with quick breaths. 

Then I asked if work underlies everything, even pleasure [love] and knowledge, according to Freud's triangle. The Doc pended the answer.

That was all for the day...I left a bit early. 

I am glad for the knowledge given, the truth, yet...As a result, I feel...homeless. I feel like a wanderer.